Cyanide

: any of several compounds (as potassium cyanide) that contain the radical CN having the chemical valence of one, react with and inactivate respiratory enzymes, and are rapidly lethal producing drowsiness, tachycardia, coma, and finally death.

Cyan pepper is in my eyes.
Frivolous intentions become a dark
Layer of masochism enveloping but
Sedate. Impetuous grandeur provides
An air of imperial importance,
You’re confident and attractive
And my humble plights are
Smitten by your egotism.

Altruistic objective slights
Everything abrasive but it fails to
Composite the insensitivity that is
Inside of you – all you are
And all you will ever be to me,
Hypocritical prattle emanates
From that grotesque orifice
You claim to call a voice.

Lie to me; drench me in the
Pathological habits that you
Perpetuate and are so exemplary
At exclaiming at the top of your
Foul voice, cyanide cradled in a vase of
Passion you lack the substance I require.
I am incredulous but you are everything
That I desire to be

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I hate mondays. I feel like shit.